Baptist is a style that emerges as folks attempt to follow Jesus.
JESUS is the point.
Jesus pointed to Love.
If you want to be born spiritually into God's family, you can be.
Just trust that there is forgiveness for sin (anything not perfect)
and tell God you are sorry for hurting Him (God loves you)
and ask for forgiveness in Jesus' name.
Did you do that?
Go and be baptized!
Pastor David can help, if you like.